It's not so much so of waiting for the better future. People say the future will always get better, but isn't the good times already been? Why hope for the better times when the good times will be started without the complains. I want to wait for a better future, we struggle for A better future, but aren't we all just waiting. Sooner or later we'll just die knowing that we've spent most of our time waiting. The future seems bleak in that sort of way, knowing that the future could be better, yet knowing that waiting for it till the 'time' would come. No, life is not like that.
My friends, 2 friends, a friend that minds think so like-minded we unanimously feel that being close together would be of adverse effects, slowly drifting away from each other . But the picture of us still hangs on my shelf, knowing i have a man closely minded enough to be a brother. Only prob is we have lifes so separated we just don't hang out anymore, even though we're seeing each other for 6 times a week.
Anyway, speaking to him ysd was one in a long time, the last time hanging out with him was during our class chalet, 4 months ago? Wow. time flies, we both agreed we didn't hang out as much as we did in the past, we both agreed that time wasn't on both our side, or maybe just the silent fact that too much of a good thing is bad. I told him some problems i am feeling, the hurt and the sorrows i've been feeling for quite a while, no one to tell to. It's a sad feeling when you're unable to reveal your sorrows to anyone. Hmm that's the reason people turn to blogging too.
We both now agree we should hang out more now, now that the good times' already been. "isn't it?", I asked myself. This is a mutual feeling.
My other friend is one that i'd wish i'd make more time for him, him knowing that i don't have time, but he does, and our other friend was commenting just now that he's a bad influence for us to the fact that he has so much more free time than us . LOL. yes totally agree, but best friends are those that exploit all nonsense from you. hahaha. Anyway, he mentioned how he'll finish his a lvls this year and he'll go NS next year. It really took me by surprise. I didn't realise that it would be so fast. Well, there's still like another 10-14 months more? But still. quite fast .
The future that you've expected will come sooner or later, and no matter how much you'd prepare, it'll definitely still take you by surprise.
Isn't the future funny? The future doesn't only mean the times that will happen, but it also means the times that is happening, even those that had already begun or ended. Yes those 2 stories i've told are 2 scenarios much related to this learning i've undersood today:
I've always expect the future to be better, or worse. Those that is for the better, it still takes me by surprise, no matter what. And those for the worse, I'd known it'll happen, but i still will be utterly shock by it, dumbfounded, stupefied. Anticipation, omniscience, is it really a good thing?
I know these days would sooner or later come, but how i'll respond to those days.. well we'll just have to wait and find out, right?
