If only... meh.

Looking at results now i realised i could have done better in year 1 and 2. just didn't bothered to study.. should have. but if i think about it, if i could go back time to relive it again, i think i still wont study. lol. #fkinglazyass.

Door Science.

"Ever walk into a room with some purpose in mind, only  to completely forget what that purpose was? 

Turns out, doors themselves are  to blame for these strange memory lapses.

Psychologists at the University of Notre Dame have discovered that passing through a doorway triggers what's known as an event boundary in the mind, separating one set of thoughts and memories from the next.

Your brain files away the thoughts you had in the previous room and prepares a blank slate for the new locale."

So now we know.....

 

It's not aging, it's the bl**dy door! ....

 

Thank goodness for scientific studies  :))

Practice SAT Test.

Took the SATs for fun . This was my score:

Test: Pretest 2012-2013
Date Taken: 10/16/2012
Student: Jeremy Ho

Subject	Score Range	# Right	# Wrong	# Omitted
Reading	560	45	22	0
Writing	520 (MC: 51, Essay: 8*)	31	18	0
Math	670	46	8	0

Language still sucks like always but math still ok

This is the Percentile Ranks ! My maths percentile is at the 89% and higher. (cheh bah.not bad hehe.) 

Too far away.

i feel one day you'll go away, might find someone better than me, who understands you more easily. I feel so stupid sometimes i can't even understand my own girlfriend. Can't even give a sense of safety and tell you everything will be alright. Our love is like forbidden, we ate the apple tree and now pandora box open. But the problem is you suffer, if so i shouldn't let you into our world, cause you so much pain and suffering. The love is far away, we only can wait till i come back, see the image of your face so blur on my computer screen, can't tell you how i feel properly. Can't talk to you properly. When bad things happen to you i'm not there for you, that's the worst. Everyday i wish you were here with me. Every time i go to another country or city i always wish u were here to see with me. But the truth is you're not here, so i only can use materialistic means. But still have to wait till i'm back before i can give you. Sorry my love, please wait for me to come back so i can hug you again. I know it's frustrating for you too, you think that i wont be able to truly understand you, that our worlds are too different. Maybe if everything was different, you could still continue to be happy like you always were, your problems would always never overcome your positive outlook on life. Never once i saw you be sad for more than a day, even if it was so bad, you still smiled. I was there, i saw how sad you were that time, but u still smiled even after everything. Now anything between us happen, you would be sad whole day, let the negativity overwhelm you, and make your life so sad. I always feel that when you are sad, it's always my fault, that i can't do what a boyfriend should be doing: making his girlfriend happy. And not by being the one who will help avoid the problem, but the one who can make the pain go all away, not be the one who causes it in the first place. Cos when everything is over, reality will still come back and sadness will come again. And then the process will repeat. But the problem is i'm not there now to lend u a shoulder to cry on, not there to hug you, not there to tell you that everything will be ok. I also got my problems here, I suffer also, but to see you suffer is worse than mine. I'm a man, i can carry my burden with me it's no problem. But a man's duty is to carry his burden as well as shoulder his love one's burden also. I only can feel your pain, but i cannot take it away. I could take it away, but it would cause us so much pain. You suggested it once to me before, when i hear those words from you i thought everything we fought for would be lost. But we still persevered on. Now we are almost our 4th month already. By time i come back it'll be our 6th month. I can shoulder all the pain for us, till i come back. Cos im the stupid one who leave u behind.. i'm sorry. Make you suffer so much, bring you into this world. Everyone always tell me you are immature, and im a big bad wolf. They say that you too kiddy, how to be girlfriend. I tell them to shut up. Last time i also see you as a girl, but you are same age as me, then im just a boy? yeah correct we are only teenagers, we don't know the world, we still got so much more to live and love. Who are they to judge when they are also about our age? I always believe no matter what, we will eventually get older and matured. So why u wanna waste your time to get older then do the things u wanted to do when u were young? Maybe by then you'll give up those dreams of youth and eventually die with regrets of not doing what u wanted to do. They say it's stupid, categorising these stuff as YOLO. nonsense they are not living life, they are only criticizing life. Those that think we cannot make it, you cannot judge us. no one in the world can judge anything about you or us as long as they're not inside the story of our book. You don't know everything that had happened before and after, you don't know the feelings we had, the hardships we faced, the ups and downs of everything, even all before the first page of our story, so many things happened. Who are you to judge whether it is right or wrong? My own dad told me, ' do what u want, no one can stop you . This is your life, not even i have the right to stop you.' It's because if you continue following what others tell you to do, you will be only living another person's life, not your life. And the day you're on your death bed you'll think of everything that you wished you did, all the regrets. Even my own nai nai tell me in chinese "现在这么老了，想回以前，为什么我们年轻时候这么笨，只听父母亲话，没有想过自己要做的事。" Then i asked her if she really had a chance what she would do, she replied,“现在都老了，要想回以前要做的事都不知道啦。”　then she tell me, “你年代很幸福，要做什么都可以，不要浪费。”　I really love my grandmother and grandfather. As im typing what she told me really makes me miss them, makes me wanna cry now. I'm very homesick. Stuck here, everyone will tell you how lucky you are, to go to overseas to see the world. But in the end home is where the heart is. You go overseas is to see how lucky you are, open your eyes to a new world. So its really an irony, I honestly can't say either i'm more happy or more sad. Coming back to this, I only wish that your heart and mind stay strong, for you and for us. I only wish i can tell you how much i love you now. 

Repost: A letter to prime minister Lee Hsien Loong

Subject:  Re: Maidin Packer -- A LETTER TO PRIME MINISTER LEE HSIEN LOONG

Date: Sat, 8 Sep 2012 11:17:05 +0800

Please note that the writer, Mr Mohd Maidin bin Packer, is an EX- MP.

A LETTER TO PRIME MINISTER LEE HSIEN LOONG

by Maidin Packer on Thursday, September 6, 2012 at 3:22pm ·
THE PRIME MINISTER
MR LEE HSIEN LOONG
"EITHER SINGAPOREANS PRODUCE MORE KIDS OR WE MUST BRING IN MORE OUTSIDERS TO BECOME CITIZENS" need not be the only options available to us. As the Government invite the people to think deeper into this and other issues raised at the PM's National Day Rally, we should also look into other possibilities.

Many countries, including the middle east, have been employing foreigners for decades now, and yet all or most of them remain foreigners on work passes. In some countries, the foreigners far outnumber the locals. They are there strictly for professional and economic reasons.

As they grow older, these workers (from cleaners to construction workers to executives, engineers, bankers & more), will go back to their respective countries. They are then replaced by newer workers. And life goes on. Almost no foreigners became localised or given citizenships because it carries certain responsibilities, rights & benefits AND THESE ARE RESERVED FOR LOCALS ONLY.

Locals are represented in their government service, the private sector as well as employed by many enterprises that set-up shops in Dubai, Qatar, Saudi, Bahrain, Kuwait, Jordan, etc. And locals seldom feel threatened by the presence of foreigners. Their interest are looked after by their governments.

There is something in the way they did it that can be studied and considered for Singapore. Here are
some examples:

(i) Qatar. Out of the total population of approximately 1.7 million (2011 est.), the make up of ethnic groups is as follows: Qatari (Arab) 20%; other Arab 20%; Indian 20%; Filipino 10%; Nepali 13%; Pakistani 7%; Sri Lankan 5%; other 5%. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Qatar#Demographic)

(ii) In 2010, the UAE's population was 8.2m, of whom only 13% were UAE nationals or Emiratis. Majority of the population were expatriates. Many expatriates have been demanding citizenship but there is no naturalisation process in the UAE. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/UAE#Demographics)

(iii) BAHRAIN with land size almost like Singapore, has a  population of 1.2 million in 2010, of which 568,399 were Bahraini and 666,172 were non-nationals (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bahrain#Demographics)

(iv)  KUWAIT - population 3 million, with about 2 million non-nationals. Kuwaiti citizens are a minority. The government rarely grants citizenship to foreigners to maintain status quo. In 2008, 68.4% of the population consisted of expatriates, making the country the 4th highest ratio of expatriates of the world. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kuwait#Demographics)

In our case, some of the best can become citizens, maybe as PRs first. If they stay long enough, got married and have children, then they can be considered for citizenship as the children are born here.

There is no serious need to give citizenship to so many as we have done the past few years. Lets not forget, those who became citizens early in their working life, will face similar issues to deal with, just like other Singaporeans, and they may end up not marrying or having a very small family. And we will be back to square one. By then they already have citizenship rights.    

If we can keep most foreigners as PRs or work passes, the financial burden on the government will also not increase so much more as we add services for families and the elderly. Therefore the need to increase taxes or GST will be limited.

Like in the middle east, Singapore citizens also get regular handouts from the government, sharing some of the economic surplus dished out during the annual budget. It has been very useful for the lower income group. If we are strict in granting new citizenship, the size of the handouts and other welfare budget will not increase so much.

Singaporeans whose families have been here since before & after the 2nd world war, and since before and after the independence of Malaya (1957), as part of Malaysia (1963) and then independent Singapore (1965) have at least some common short history together as one people.

In the 1960s to the 1980s, as we embarked on economic development programme, people were asked to make early sacrifices for the sake of the country. One of which is when the Government acquired their land at around $1 psf for economic purposes.

Most villages were torn down and the established communities were dissolved. People were uprooted from their villages and moved to housing estates. Everyone had to adjust to new surroundings.

My village head used to own a 50-acre coconut plantation. We were all moved to Toa Payoh, Hougang, Kallang and Whampoa. We still stayed in touch. I met the children of the village head recently. They are mostly taxi drivers, property agents & hawkers.
 
They had to struggle hard to make a living and could only imagine what it would be like if their land (estimated to be worth a few  billion dollars today)  had remained with the family.

There are many other stories of locals working with the Government to ensure Singapore's survival as the future looked very uncertain in 1960s. We all felt that we were all in ONE TEAM, as if everyone were looking after each other and have a greater common interest in mind. The government was seen as very caring and the people responded accordingly.

Back then we rode on Democratic-Socialist values - a mix of democracy with some essence of socialism that allowed us to come up with pro-people national policies - cheap education, housing, medical care and welfare assistance for the needy. We even erected stand pipes in villages.

I think we were all poorer but somehow I could feel that THE SENSE OF UNITY WERE A LOT STRONGER. This include the SENSE OF BELONGING and TEAM SPIRIT between the people and the government. It felt like we were all ONE BIG MULTI-RACIAL FAMILY. We moved as one, act as one - all for the good of the people and the nation.

Today we are so much richer - one of the richest country by per capita income. But I am not sure if the SENSE OF UNITY, SENSE OF PURPOSE & NATIONAL TEAM SPIRIT between the people and the Government have all become stronger. I suspect it has not grown stronger. Not everyone is doing as well. Not everyone earns as much as the per capita income number. But property prices had skyrocketed.

Naturally with one of the highest income in the world,  our cost of living here is also one of the highest. Everyone understand this. But I cant say that THE SPECIAL FEELING OF BEING ONE BIG SINGAPORE FAMILY STRUGGLING TOGETHER FOR THE COMMON GOOD is still there. Maybe not as strong as it used to be. Although it should have become stronger.

And I suspect the newer development motto of Singapore Inc - CAPITALISM - had a lot to do with this situation. Capitalism, in extreme and especially as it is advocated in America, means to each his own. You do well, you enjoy your good life (even to the extreme). If you don't do well, that's too bad. Its your own fate or fault.

While some argued that capitalism will also bring out some good in people and the nation, I worry it will bring about some serious social problem. It can weaken, even tear, the fabric of our society. We may end up with a class society - the super rich, the rich, the upper-middle income, lower middle and the lower class -  the ordinary folks.

The problem is, under such a system, everything will be priced according 'to the market value' - be it housing, medical care, food etc. And such prices are easily affordable by the richer people in our society. The not so rich will face problems.

For example, in 1971 when my family moved to Toa payoh, my father could only afford a 3-room flat. The price was $6,800. While his salary was so small, he had no problem to service the loan. While most people today are earning many times more than my late father's generation then, they will not feel as easy to own and service the loan of a 3-room flat. The price has gone up like 30 times.
     
Somehow this and many more experiences of our people, has eroded the sense of 'being cared' by the Government. More people felt they had to struggle on their own all their lives, beginning at kindergarten age, in order to have a life here.

And today, with so many 'new citizens' included, whatever surpluses and economic benefits through Government 'giveaways' had to be shared with all the 'new Singaporeans'. More people sharing the same cake.

But they, their fathers and grandparents, were not here then in our poorer days. Back then our parents and grandparents had to make sacrifices (land, home, kampungs etc) and sweat it out for our families, the people and the country.

This will forever mark the difference between the original citizens of Singapore and the newbies.
 
Will the capitalist system that the Government adopted and the big jump in demographic changes that has occurred the past few years create a wider gap between the people and government? Will we end up with LESSER UNITY AS ONE NATION, ONE PEOPLE? I feel it has happened. I just hope it wont get worst.

If we are to move ahead stronger and more united, I think the Government need to study these carefully and make the necessary move to RE-UNITE THE NATION, so that we can all MOVE AS ONE again. I doubt we are.

It has become more fashionable these days for people to disagree with the government. That is to be expected as the people becomes more educated and discerning.

The more worrying trend is, many more people than before simply disagree with everything that the Government does. They even criticise good government efforts. But why? For them, its like there is no more trust left. They have entered a mode of less trusting the government.

It's sad if we end-up a more fractious society with the people looking at the Government far differently than the earlier generation used to. Whatever has happened since about a decade ago, must have caused some hurt in the hearts and minds of the people. It caused a rift to occur. We need to do something to address and heal this.

The key to this healing is to BUILD TRUST between the people and the government. Otherwise, a DISUNITED Singapore, is not at all good for this little red dot's future.
 

regards
Maidin Packer, Singapore
cc: Ministers Yaacob Ibrahim (Mica) & Heng Swee Keat (MOE)

my time zone problem

• its not like bad thing lah its just sub consiously likE thatcos if u see time zone righti wake up here suppose to be at 7am alarm but i always wake up 6am means in singapore its considered as 12pm i usually will wake up at 12pm in singapore if no sch oneden even now only 8pm my body will feel as though pass 12 midnight that kinda feeling edivery weird onei everyday will always sleep abt 9-10+den wake up abt 12am+ n 6am+i think i wake up at 12am cos i in sg go 8am class need wake up 6 am so like that uh