Change of Perception.

Maybe finding the right one isn't someone that is so compatible and of your equal standards. but someone that'll make you wanna change for who you are.
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Can't believe that took me forever to realise that.



yes i need to enjoy life more and stop worrying about everything that i have or those that i don't.

Strength of the mind .

The mind is a powerful tool, when used correctly. I couldn't comprehend why I had feelings for her in the first place. Why she was so imperfect but perfect in every way. And since she left, the only option was to just forget . But you see, it isn't so easy to forget. But I had to, I had to find someone new, or someone that treasures me as much as I treasure them. Make new memories to forget the old. And it worked. I won't say it doesn't hurt anymore, but I'll just say I'm sentimental. Anyway the reason for this post was finally the real reason I found out why I had liked her in the first place. It didn't occurred to me at all, until now. Why she was the only one that, for my whole ,short, love life, she would be the first one that I would say 'yes' to have her as my partner . I think the answer would be that she had that same personal emotional qualities as me. Aka. Sense of sarcasm. We just seem to know exactly the type of hidden meanings everyone of our words were. So perfectly synced, so nicely matched . I really messed up. I guess in the end we live and let learn. Or as my friends say , "it's too bad."

But as words and feelings elope, they end and fade like a distant memory. Short, yet sweet. I think no one could be as savvy as you in this world. And this post is hurtin me like fuck.

But as my post says, the mind is a really powerful tool. Telling myself to move on eons ago has lead me to be able to think without that fog of affection, without mopping like a bodoh. So finally I can say that I'm over you. I was just hoping we still could have those witty conversations again. Cos those are really hard to come by.

I miss you , but not the love I once had.

When you say nothing at all cover.

Today weather really damn nice. Decided to do a cover today cos studying is just too mainstream. #procrastination

Here's the link (like it mes amis!! Merci Beaucoup! ) :
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=10150985756886318

I am a Pieces .

双鱼座的他们是一个很难理解的星座，因为她的性格太多元化。他可以幽默，可以冷漠，可以柔弱，可以坚强，可以成熟，可以天真，可以精明，可以傻气，说话往往口是心非，你们永远猜不透他们在想什么。不要说他们是在装，其实，这才是真正的双鱼，一个千变万化的鱼.

back to track.

New year, final year.

Suddenly having the mood to write on my blog again. I guess i'm slowly overcoming the torment slowly. Beginning to slowly forget and starting to forgive myself. You're leaving here at the end of this month too anyway, at least i won't get so easily paranoid anymore.

The new junior batch finally had their first lesson ysd. It was hard telling myself that nothing will go wrong. Even getting the room for the practice was super hard. We only managed to get it through my connections. I only fear that once i'm gone whether the club can have these sort of networking to help this sustainability. The junior batch seems good this year. I only wish that i could do more .

I think studies as for now (week 6 currently) is fairly alright. I was expecting year 3 to be a killer. Maybe it's either the tough parts havn't started or we're all comfortable with the modules with the ample foundations during the previous 2 years? or maybe most of the modules are in the labs that's why we feel so comfortable. No wonder i used to think why i always don't see my year 3 seniors around in schools or at tutorial rooms. I hope this sem i can pull my GPA back up, i don't wanna waste this last year. At least i would like to get a above average engineering GPA for university.

I think life now is pretty smooth sailing. The biggest currents have passed, the smaller tides are just beginning to come only. Same as always, i always wish the same thing .

^ about that.. My friends always feel that i'm an idiot, cos the way i put it across it's like that's my first priority in life. MEH. it is kinda now, cos i mean my studies and everything else are so clear path-ed to me, why worry about the good stuff?

I just can't wait to go overseas for my attachment.
Germany : October Fest.
or
London : Olympics 12'

Faith & Believe : Questions & Answer.

　老　公，你手機來電話啦！　”


男：喂？


女：喂，你……吗？


男：是，妳是誰？


女：我是……


男：噢，妳啊！找我有事？


女：你能出來一下？我在你們家外面的。


“　去吧？老公～我相信你！　”


女：喝茶吧！


男：什麼事快說吧！這麼晚了。我不放心我老婆一個人在
家，她怕黑。


女：我離婚了！


男：為什麼啊！你老公不是很愛妳嗎？


女：他這個混蛋，他背著我搞了小三，嗚嗚嗚嗚


男：好了，别傷心了，妳還年輕，还有更好的等著妳……


女：你恨我嗎？


男：一切都過去了。我現在把妳當朋友，没有什麼恨不恨。


女：真的？


男：呵呵～當然，我有和妳說過謊嗎？


女：妳還愛我嗎？


男：……愛


女：我們结婚吧！？我一定會做一個賢妻良母。


男：我有妻子了，我和她上個星期剛領的結婚證書，再過兩
個月就结婚了。


女：不是還没结婚嗎？


男：不可以，她真的很愛我，我不能傷害她。


女：你不好意思我去說……


男：那也不行。


女：嗚～嗚，为什么？


男：因為我是男人，所以不可以。


女：我想知道是具體為什麼 你還愛我，而且我也還愛你，為什麼就不能再一起？


男：妳真想知道為什麼？


女：嗯。


男：


1：是一個人 ，我知道愛上一個人不容易更知道被傷後有多痛苦，所以我不能離開她。


2：之所以决定结婚是因為我决定了，這一輩子選定她了，選定她就是我這輩子唯一的女人。不管以後說什麼話都以不愧于她為標準，做什麼事都以不背叛她為原則，不管以後我们遇見的是風還是雨，我都會站在最前面為她擋風遮雨。


3：她很愛我，她很傻，很善良 她不管做什麼事都處處為我著想。我今天來都是經過她的勸說我才來的，她相信我，相信我不會對不起她，她决定嫁给我，就是决定把她的一生给了我。女人的一生是不允许被踐踏的。明白嗎？


女：懂了……


“　世界上有兩種美　”


外在美：它能滿足你的面子，但不定能给一生的幸福。


内在美：它雖然不能给足你面子，但它一定能给你一生幸福。


女　人……面子重要……還是幸福重要……


女：做個朋友可以吗？


男：不要了，我不需要女朋友以外的女性朋友！


女：為什麼？說理由！！！


男：


第一，没有共同語言，我平時玩的東西妳們女孩子也不喜歡玩。


第二，妳滿足不了我女朋友可以給我的需求。


等三，我没時間和妳逛街吃飯什麼的，那是陪女朋友做的事。


第四，我女朋友會吃醋。所以何必呢？






男　人　最驕傲的不是睡過多少女人，
而是能有一個女人願意讓他睡一輩子。


女　人　最驕傲的不是擁有多少男人，
而是她的男人願意為他拒绝多少女人。