Ti amo ancora di più .

This song represents what i will not be. 
This song brings me to that moment time and again . 
And yes, it was worth it. 

What i always wanted to say.

yiyilian:

To the Broken Hearted

Dear Friend, 

At this point of time your mind will probably be filled with nonsense. How to die? When to die? Loneliness. No on cares. OMG JUST KILL ME AND SPARE ME THIS HORRIBLE TORTURE. Yea, these kinds of nonsense.

I wouldn’t say that it’s wrong, I wouldn’t say that it’s right either. Every person has their own different coping strategies. Maybe for now working day and night is helping you numb the hurtful feelings and negative thoughts that are hitting you but sooner or later, you’ll have to face it. You know that.

I’m not saying that I’m better than you. But I want you to know, you’re not alone. Not at all. Friends may be scattered all over the world but hey, you know what, we care and we want to be with you, though not physically possible but at least virtually. The thought of someone just being there to listen is comforting. 

I’ve gone through what you’re going through right now and perhaps  am not completely over it yet. It’s hard to forget. It’s hard to let go. It’s hard to even believe that it has ended. It took me a long time to do all that but I’m sure in no time, even before you realize it, you’re over and done with it already. 

All good things come to an end. One good thing ends because something BETTER is out there waiting for you. 

I’m coming home to lend you the shoulder that you once lent me. Not returning the favour but loving you as a friend should and would.

Hang in there, alright?

@TTIW

love,

Shueh Yi

It's alright, I'm OK, I think God can explain.

After a night of many negativeness, I finally had the conversation with her. And settled it once and for all. I had been contemplating how to go about to talk to her and make it more subtled.
But you know what? There's no way to end something in any good way. And it doesn't help to talk to your friends, cos it makes your situation go in a stupid loop. some will agree , some won't. in the end it's all you.
So note to self: never start something that might fck yourself in the end.
And a lesson learnt: Never spread your problems with your friends.. it only creates more problem. Only share with your bros & best friends.

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