This sort of fear.

This sort of fear. never before, i've ever felt it before. the fear of you knowing you might die. too afraid. no one to talk to.

soon.

Soon i'll be heading to Taiwan . Will be a mentally and physically challenging task for me to go for a 10 days expedition but i'm looking forward to it. 

Moving on, we all have to move on. Every now and then, we cling on to the past cos it seems so much more blissful than the present or future. What it could have become could be so much more, much more happiness. But the past only makes what you have currently so wasteful and you are stuck to what you can never have. That thing you are wasting is 'Time'. But it doesn't matter, we all learn it the hard way sooner or later, you have to move on sooner or later. 

I don't always look forward to the future. I don't think its a healthy thing to constantly do. It's as though you are waiting to die. 

"Can't wait for Primary School to be over.. i want to go to Secondary school!"

"Can't wait till i get into upper secondary! Can be Lao Da can wear long pants!"

"Can't wait till i finish O lvl's. So damn stressful. Stupid classmates damn immature can't wait to go to poly or jc."

"Can't wait till i go to NS. Studying is so Boring."

"Can't wait till i get outta NS. F!&*-ing wasting 2 years of my life here."

"Can't wait to go to Uni, can enjoy like siao sia."

"Can't wait to work! I can finally earn big bucks for myself!"

"Can't wait to get married, settle down and have kids!"

.

.

.

By then your Life has already been over.

I wish to only have the mindset to actually enjoy what i have now. Which is time, and youth. I still have 1 more year of 'teen's haha. Doesn't matter to me though. 

說好的幸福呢

你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了


情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了


时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了


怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得


你不等了
说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了
放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢


你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了


情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了


时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了


怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得


你不等了
说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了
放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢


怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
我都还记得


你不等了
说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了
放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢