The burden of the body aching to do that perfect move, to fight like mad, waste all those hard earned money, just to throw them away for that few minutes of stiff smiles and heighten self-awareness.
I feel that it is too taxing, not to the body; i love the feeling of aches after spending hours, but the waste of mental exhaustion asking myself constantly if it is worth it at all. Like it literally isn't.
Why didn't i just do like adventure club or smt, climb mountains, hike, canoeing or whatever. Ending up learning how to put make up, wearing tight-ass (literally) stuff. The only kick i get is the response i get when i tell people about it.
In any case, i think it wouldn't have mattered even if i had a life partner = dance partner.
Internal Struggles are real.
http://kissmanga.com/Manga/Ballroom-e-Youkoso/Vol-010-Ch-044--Contained-v002?id=384098
