My first post .
Tried this cos my poly classmate suggested it 2 me.. well it was cos of d movie 天天好天. It made me think a lot about my life and so my friend tell me 2 write it in a blog. Went 2 watched it in JB cos it is MY movie. (oops cannot say ltr my parents find out :P)
Anyway it was an awesome day cos i realise i very long go JB through Woodlands already. (6years OMO!.o.o)
Me n CH went 1st den met the rest an 1hr later. Ate at Nando's den catched the movie at 7.25! Wowz. Malayian movie at least got standard compared to Sg.. Sg kinda fail haiz.
Watching the movie made me realise a lot of stuff.
Well since this is my 1st post u won't know me n my life.
SOOOO.. *Info*Info*
Well I'm 17 coming to 18 soon. In poly studying Engineering. And have a bunch of awesome classmates, friends that are mostly malaysians. .
Reflections of my lifeWhich comes to my 1st point:
Since my bestest of friends are malaysians.. i sometimes feel very 'out'. cos they would talk abt MY stuff. which i feel perfectly acceptable and have gotten used to it . Who's to blame? no one.
2nd Point:
Humans work this way: If anything goes wrong, there will always be the Blamed & Blamer.
The Blamer is the one who, obviously, blames the one who made the mistake.
The Blamed, however, is the one getting blamed.
Now, what if.. the mistake made cannot be put a blame upon? No human to blame, words nor actions are done, but this mistake is so animated that the consequences is, ironically, devastating.
The point i am making: The blamer has no one to blame but himself for over-thinking things, anyway if i were to blame something/one i would blame TIME.
"With time, feelings fade, memories formed, actions formed, words said. The pure horridness of all evil is time.
But with time, Love is formed, memories , both happy and sad, are made, thus with time, people mature."
Haiz. my mind always contradict my feelings. Talk so much still feel the same. Well at least i got this outta my chest.
The reason i talked about time. is that i feel that life is a cycle. Feelings always goes around like a sinusoidal wave. Currently, i feel that im at the -ve region. People hurt people without even realising it. But u can't blame them. Only Time. There u go, if u understand it, u will, just open ur eyes and u'll see it.
It sucks to be of the other end of the line.And staring at it while your eyes bleed with tears.
3rd point:
I think i am gonna give up. After 8months.. all my sadness, happiness, will soon be over. I will give up. I guess he'll be happy to hear it though. WHY? i have no idea. Maybe is seeing someone of ur kin experiencing the same thing as u. Or he knows something i dunno, which yeah.. most prob it is. No difference. Honestly i have already started my rebounding since 1 mth ago. Guess no one notices. i think he did. But i guess he also kinda gave up thinking otherwise from the rest. Why can't i be perfectly normal? stupid me. Sucks to be me i can tell u first. wait. i guess i could say i am normal. Since most people experience the same stuff as me. Like my sis, dunno what's going on . "They don't say, I don't listen."<--simple philosophy. Thus to sum this point up, i really am gonna try my best to move on. I hate facebook though. seeing you and him together in most of the mutual stuff is hurting me, slowly, but surely. SBS.
Today i realise i have an awesome family.
"If your faith is strong, anything is possible to overcome."
Half of my Heart-john mayer & Taylor Swift. <3
*listening to it now.*
