2day was fast. machining, late, ask jj help me take, go wirecut c andrew kena fk my lecturer so try comfort him ended up dunno if useful or not. Time makes priorities blurry, or the other way round, depends on opinions.
Finish machining nth do, whole day text the TP kia , end up go gym den leave me nth 2 do 4 my evening so went pool with joel grp. dance little by little starts to pile the stress on me again and again. Not only that.. SC last min go perform with Fareez, honored but i question capabilities... seriously... last min too, and my first SC performance. damn nervous. tml is the practice with him. #FML.
At night go clubbing @rebel. #Welcome Home.
Oh the 2nd pic.. reason why light on, on the dance floor cos got police raid.. damn scared gotta check cos i heard it takes damn long to check. and OMFG so many ppl just now.. even worse than ladies night. Lucky after 20 mins they left den when the music started and the lights went out.. I WOKE UP. the beat, the adrenaline, i finally felt it. I danced like nuts .. not to say i deliberately emo b4, but i just had no mood to dance, and even they keep teasing about grinding girls, i just don't feel like doing it, not even try. I see those guys doing it, i feel like they're damn awesome. I guess i'm not that awesome after all. But seriously, i had a moment when a chick grinded me , omfg my legs like go numb, like those kinda tingling feeling den it goes numb. DAMN FKING NOT USED TO IT. Finally left at 2.40am, so sad sia. music damn pumped after 2am. Den i left, most of dem followed and i feel bad. Find cab place, withdraw money, den go home. 13.20 bucks. ok lah still ok.
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haiz TP kia r TP kia, i tok 2 u whole day, end up go slp, u're making me a twit whore too. whatsapp is really a bullshit app, thank gdness i didn't buy it. In club no signal at all. In the cab whole time look at ur twit posts, 'You can never judge when you're looking with your eyes wide shut.' Ur life is on track, i can kinda see that, but sometimes still emo a bit here and there. I still feel damn distant (obviously). I wanna jio u out more, i wanna become ur good friend again, maybe finally a best friend, not only for you, i need one now too.
Yes i need a friend now, dunno why, maybe pieces PMS period.. I'm fking easily agitated. I now tend to scold people damn easily when they do something wrong. My fault or not, i'll just start scolding. But i also keep apologising too. 'Sorry' seems too easy. I scold, i say sorry, i still feel exactly the same. Weird little me.. haiz dunno if its good or not.. maybe it's cos im just having a moment where i just cant take anymore nonsense in my life already.
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Not to say i dun have a friend now? But those who are 'recently' close to me now are starting to easily agitate me... stupid PMS seriously, or just my normal 'over-thinking' self. Who cares. Honestly i don't feel u all even bother about me anymore, fuck i say goodbye no one even respond that night. I fking pissed off but i didn't care cos i was so looking forward to dinner with my friend that hell no u guys will spoil my mood.
Fucking Hell.. Bros<Hoes? Fuck i used to be on the other side, being the bros>hoes. So what? Tv show only please lah.. Like Family Guy, insult HIMYM, which i agree, kinda. But ended up i became like everyone else, but hoes aside, i'd rather hang out wif someone whom i nv seen for 6 years den one who i met last wk. and now he keep bitching, fuck end up b4 i slp i scold him. Come on lah i apologise u still can make a sarcastic remark. Cb i didn't bother i just write back to ur wall. Fuck if got prob den say dun ltr like u me n mr muscle keep everything inside ltr end of d day fuck everything up between us lah.
Jeremy ah bung, jagan tension only lah. Dun mara so much lah, everything can be alright. I hope so too.
