If belief and salvation is true, then your best friends are God.
Had it rough ysd. Took its final toll on my mental being. Even before my physical self is already affected. But it was the final turn. Had a really bad beating by everyone last night, even in the afternoon i was already overcoming a great amount of stress from school work and friends issue. It has happen time and time again till i thought i couldn't care anymore. I guess my heart didn't feel the same. Cos in the end it all came pouring down. That incident in the Clubroom, it was really alright, i had no plans on doing anything, i just wanted to go home and sleep it off, knowing the next day it would be a holiday and i would feel utterly f-ed. But after it happened, i felt much better, not by the fact that i finally cracked, everyone knows i have my problems, but no one knows how far to the extend it was . They said no one was there to comfort them when it was their outburst period, so it gave me a sense of happiness to know there are people who actually cares, and no i dun think u all r not close to me, i treat all my friends the same.
The beating i get from last sat and ysd was really fucking my mind really bad.. really really bad.. i just couldn't handle the role given to me and the critisms. I really could just drop everything, cos now i couldn't give a half ass shit about anything. i just wanna complete my diploma, i honestly dun need all these in my life. But i chose it, and i dun give up, but there is always times when i wanna, which is now too. FML i always overthink stuff.
You bloody sohai come call me after u tok 2 ty, cibai u sitting next to me now singing MLTR's Paint My Love, singing the words b4 the song lol. Dunno if u know but just before u called me to stay over i was fking moody, den u stay over my house wanna make peace, 'it's like a place i've known'. If u're reading now, u should know that everyone got their problems now, and the bonds we all have now are like one big dick, without the testicles, the dick cannot shoot, and u r the big dick btw. (worse example ever.)
